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so i guess my dad reads my livejournal.
at first i wasn't angry, simply because i didn't want to be mad at him. it's like i'm so far away from my family that i just did not want to be upset at him.
i call him back, and he went off on me, because jim got drunk this weekend. like it was all my fault...as if i was shoving drinks down my brother's throat. he doesn't seem to think it is a big thing reading my livejournal, so i think it's time to retire this one, and get a new one. it's not like i'm trying to hide anything, i just don't agree with my parents reading my JOURNAL. so, i'm going to try to find another code, and if you want the new name, just IM me.
love is evol x
kthnx.
<3
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[08 Oct 2003|05:09pm] |
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as my brother likes to put it.
...so there's this guy.
well there's TWO that are on my mind. one makes me sad, the other makes me very very happy.
boy #1. you have no idea what it is to feel this way. because you have forgotten that i exist. i have stopped iniating conversation with you because it hurt me too much when you would not show the enthusiasm i wished for. i know i am an idiot for continuing to feel this way, for still thinking about the times you held me. i fell for you, boy. i never set out to fall for you. i just wanted to kiss you, i told myself over and over. i just want to makeout with him. instead i got a month of guessing, a month of holding hands and hugs, and a month of happiness. but the feeling of being forgotten makes reliving that month so much harder.
boy #2. everytime i talk to you, i am so happy. i smile almost constantly. i never want to end our conversations, you are so easy to talk to. you are making me slowly begin to forget that summer boy. yeah...i think i have a crush. ahh i'm a dork.
but now that that's all done.
attn anyone who loves me.
i would love to receive mail. real mail. anything you want to send, letters, drawings, pictures, mix cds, magazines, cupcakes....i would be so damn happy. see, its lonely being so far from everyone, and receiving things via US MAIL from people i love would make this girl smile. if you want the address, comment y'all.
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[06 Oct 2003|04:08pm] |
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oh man what a weekend.
it was definitely family weekend. my brother, "step brother" [dan], and surrogate brother [conor] were all up here. it was honestly a blast.
friday night my father came to drop jim off, and we all went to cracker barrel for dinner. god, that place has amazing food. it was nice to see my dad, who i felt like i hadn't talked to in a year. i love that guy. after dinner, we got a movie, 'orange county', and went back to the dorm, where me, jessica, jim and later on kris, hung out for the night. we laughed a lot, kris had his free glow stick from halloween usa which he annoyed me with. the usual friday chill night.
saturday started out with tailgating with the ryans. amazing food, and jessica's mom and her friends were absolutely adorable. the game was fun, me jessica conor and jim stood together, unknowingly right next to justin fields...silly. conor and jim loved the pep stuff...they were cracking me up. after the game, we went back to the room for a bit, then more tailgating, then napping and we were joined by dan. i took a ghetto picture because he dressed up in his ghetto gear for my lovely neighbors across the hall WHO WENT HOME FOR THE WEEKEND. shoot, dan was all ready to hook up with one of them. anyway. after meijering it up with dan and jim, and dying jim's hair (dark brown, the exact color i think i'm going to dye mine), we went over to mark's (natalie's cousin's boyfriend's) house. we just sat around for a while, played foosball, football (dan threw up?) and listened to SHANIQUA and some neal diamond. after mark's it was over to steve's. jess and conor went back to the dorm, but dan, jim and i continued on. yeah, needless to say jim got really drunk, i was pretty buzzed and dan was just a hardass. jim was hilarious on the way home...as we were walking home, we walked right by three cops on horses that jim thought was the funniest thing ever. he kept saying "ali, ali, are the horses gonna get us??" it was an interesting night to say the least.
sunday was all about getting the room back together and time for the boys to go home. my parents came up and took jim and me out to lunch. it was nice seeing my mom, i missed her so much. it was a fun afternoon. then i caught up on sleep, and jessica ended the night talking about our weddings and whatnot. so cute.
today was a monday. i'm always recovering on mondays. i'm so tired, but my cousin, katy, and i are going out tonight. i haven't seen her in like two years, honestly. so it's going to be fun.
this update was for dan because um..he's a badass!
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A Little About Me
10 bands/artists I've been listening to lately
::01:: saves the day
::02:: <3 a second too late <3
::03:: pretty girls make graves
::04:: ludacris
::05:: outkast
::06:: thursday
::07:: death cab for cutie
::08:: taking back sunday
::09:: b.o.a.t.s
::10:: from autumn to ashes
09 things I look forward to
::01:: seeing jim this weekend
::02:: this weekend some more
::03:: halloween
::04:: starting a new book
::05:: doing laundry again <3
::06:: arizona in february
::07:: christmas break
::08:: utica's homecoming weekend
::09:: the end of the semester
8 things I like to wear
::01:: t-shirts
::02:: my american eagle jeans
::03:: my hemp bracelet
::04:: buttons on my jeans
::05:: white studded belt
::06:: simpson watch
::07:: my asian jacket
::08:: sweaters
07 things that annoy me
::01:: the wonderful ladies of the room across the hall
::02:: walking to class in the cold
::03:: mexican tuesdays in the cafeteria
::04:: not having my kitchen from home
::05:: rain
::06:: avrils
::07:: shavon
06 [wild card] Things I love
::01:: jessica ryan
::02:: jim gross
::03:: music
::04:: my friends
::05:: reading
::06:: tbs adam/saves the day
::07:: [edit] dan!!!!!
05 things I do everyday
::01:: drink a diet coke
::02:: eat
::03:: listen to 'demolition lovers'
::04:: go online and read livejournal
::05:: miss home
04 people I want to spend more time with
::01:: katie
::02:: andy
::03:: mike
::04:: everyone from home
03 Movies I could watch over and over again
::01:: donnie darko
::02:: high fidelity
::03:: dangerous lives of altar boys
2 of my favorite songs at the moment
::01:: demolition lovers-my chemical romance
::02:: a perfect sonnet-bright eyes
1 thing I'd rather be doing
::01:: sitting at denny's with the band & enzo
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[01 Oct 2003|12:13am] |
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tonight was one of the best nights i have had in a long time.
the show was incredibly amazing, in every way.
katie and kris met in our dorm. jimmy johns, bathroom hand dryers, kris and my usual banter and booty shakin', and visits to andy's [and THE bathroom] started the evening.
the four of us headed to the show (andy was meeting us there later...snowboard club or whatever). we also realized that kris & katie matched, as did jess and i. so sweet. go state.
jess, katie, and i decided to sit up in the balcony so we could see. good choice.
-moneen: althought i don't know TOO much of their stuff, they played well, i rocked out hard to 'are we happy now?' and the lead singer gyrated hilariously and the guitar player had dreads...which i might try out. they are very cute, and i got an amazing hoodie that i am in love with.
-taking back sunday: they never disappoint. adam is honestly the hottest man ever. i felt like the biggest teenybopper watching him, mouth open, in awe at the good looks this man holds. not only that, their set was soo good. i sang along the entire time, and katie and i were definitely acting out the songs.
and for the best part...
-saves the day: honestly, i don't understand how anyone who loves saves the day as much as i do could have thought their set sucked. it was honestly the most amazing choice of songs and performance of them. chris looks adorable with a guitar in front of him. and what made it even better, i don't think jessica, kris and i stopped dancing the entire time. we honestly danced our asses off. we laughed the entire time, and sang along at the top of our lungs. 'nightingale' almost made me cry. i sang 'this is not an exit' to jessica (that is the one i wanted to hear the most). kris jessica and i slowdanced. we threw our bows to just about every song. jessica and i held each other during the end of 'rocks tonic'. and when we didn't know the words (to the new songs), we just dance dance danced. katie and andy laughed constantly at us. it was honestly the most fun i have ever had at a show. i did not want it to end.
so to jessica, kris, katie, & andy: thank you for making this evening absolutely amazing. you all absolutely rule. <3<3
p.s. our hot new item andy and katie are so darn cute!! i can't get over it!!
but not cuter than brooks and jessica. but hey, who is??
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HOW COULD I HAVE FORGOTTEN?
KRIS CROWDSURFED!!! (like that bro? i'm bragging for you!)
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[30 Sep 2003|02:59pm] |
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this weekend ended up being a blast. jessica and i had a cute friday night (as always, shopping and trip to blockbuster). we laughed a lot. i went out in the rain because i HAD to get a 12 pack of diet coke, tostitos, and fruit. i looked fucking hilarious. i wish i would've taken a picture of it. anyway. andy showed up later that night, with no hair! yes, that's right kids, he hacked it all off. it looks really good, once you get used to it. he honestly looks like a completely different person.
saturday, i went to the gym. made me feel good. then, after sitting around for a couple hours, we went to cosi (co-si or co-see?) for dinner. amazing food, amazing company. we laughed a lot, tried to make some top 10 lists, went to cvs and bought kleenex. you know the usual. back at the dorm, we watched the most fucked up movie ever. 'may.' holy shit. the three of us were honestly screaming at the top of our lungs because it was that fucT up. we must have sounded pretty funny though.
after the movie, i went down to katie's room to see what was happenin for the night. kris met us at our dorm, and after dancing with the ghetto crew across the hall, and after andy squared posed for pictures, me kris katie and andy (not brooks, the other andy) were off for the night. we had fun, walking around east lansing, because there was nothing going on. but the four of us (and then three of andy's friends) laughed a lot. we ended up at andy's dorm for the evening and we just sat around and talked. good night all around.
sunday was a work day as usual. as was monday, except monday night we watched pumpkin and that movie was gay. god it makes me mad.
today i did laundry for the first time. and talked to danny. i really miss him. today is my biology exam, which i studied so hard for, so i best do good. andddddd then TAKING BACK SUNDAY/SAVES THE DAY/MONEEN show!
i am so excited for tonight.
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[30 Sep 2003|12:16am] |
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one of the worst movies ever made.
i have seen a lot of movies, and that was probably the worst i have seen.
wow, it really pissed me off.
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[25 Sep 2003|09:39pm] |
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so the most amazing thing happened tonight in my educational psych class tonight.
i got to read aloud from the 5th harry potter book in class.
so sweet.
it definitely made that three hour class go by faster.
but my paper being ripped to shreds that i wrote for it definitely was not cool. whateva.
oh and i failed my poli sci test, as i figured i did. but it's cool because he grades on this major curve and whatnot. people have failed everyone of his tests and 4.0 the class.
tomorrow is friday, and i cannot wait for the weekend of rain&cold. SWEET.
i love sweater weather.
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| i love you like a fat kid loves cake |
[24 Sep 2003|10:32pm] |
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no one in particular. but it's a funny lyric dan informed me about.
i am so angry:
it's raining. at home i love rain. i absolutely love falling asleep to the rain hitting the roof. i love watching movies on rainy days. i love driving in the rain. i hate the rain here. i have nothing to do. jessica and i sit in the dorm, pissed off. it is too wet and cold to do anything. oh and joy. it's supposed to rain saturday, sunday, monday, tuesday AND wednesday of next week. i'm going home. it's final. i wish.
speaking of going home...angry point number 2. i found out that finals week i get to stay an extra day than, i'm guessing, everyone else and take a final at EIGHT O'CLOCK PM on thursday, december 11th. sooo not fair. so if anyone wants to blow off school from home and sit with me wednesday and thursday, that would be greatly appreciated!
but on the bright side, following my one month christmas break, i just found out that in february my family might be taking a trip to a FUCKING DUDE RANCH in tuscon, arizona. i seriously could not stop smiling/laughing/fucking dying when i found this out. me and jim (and patti and alan gross of course) at a dude ranch?! oh my goodness i cannot contain my excitement. the only downside is that we're having a smaller christmas so the parents can do the trip. but i'm perfectly content with that. if they help me buy my digital camera, i'm down with a small christmas. which brings me to my next topic: do you remember the show HEY DUDE?! what a good show (jessica hated it but i thought it was funny).
angry note #3. the girls across the hall. they are the most ghetto people ever. horrible rap music and slow jams float under my door nearly 24/7, along with their LOUD voices and BLOOD CURDLING screams at 1am when i'm trying to sleep for my early class. katie can hear them with her headphones on and she's down the hall AND around the corner. kill. that's all i want to do.
i love my best friend. WHO NEVER COMMENTS <3<3<3<3<3<3<3.
this song is all i can listen to lately.
know how much
i want to show you
you're the only one?
like a bed of roses
there's a dozen reasons
in this gun.
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andy came up this weekend. we ate amazing food at applebee's and saw a movie, 'matchstick men.' alison lohman is adorable. it was really good after the twist occurred but it was a bit slow. all in all, the weekend was fun. i love that guy.
ms. lohman's hair at the end of of 'mm' motivated me to dye my hair. i'm quite excited, kris is probably going to do it for me, although he believes he is going to fuck it up. he's stupid. jessica agrees that i need to go back to dark, and i miss my red. so i'm thinking a combination of those. we'll see.
i missed my first *a second too late* show ever. i guess it was 'disastrous' according to dan and jim, but i'm sure you guys were fine. they said it was because i wasn't there. psh.
i went to the gym yesterday. i hadn't done anything in a week, so i needed it. i love the feeling after i work out. and the feeling of eating BK afterward. haha it was amazing.
i was talking to my brother last night and we both almost started crying. i miss jim more than anything. he was being so cute, completely reminding me of everything back home. it's not fair that i am seperated from that kid. he is coming up here in TWO WEEKS, and it is going to be a party.
i want someone to fall asleep with.
i miss home.
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i dreamt i was dating john cusack.
whoa, amazing
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i love cute best friend days.
honestly we haven't had one in forever.
tonight it was all me and jessica ryan.
\\boys.kissing.: whoa, that's all i have to say about that.
//we dined: taco bell, amazing)
\\we shopped: flat black and circular...cutest record store around, i spent way too much money. then to barnes&noble where we looked at art books and read poetry. we're so cute. then to cvs, i got my polaroid camera!! i'm quite excited...and a fag.
//we painted: i did her nails. i fucked up a lot, so there goes my dream of opening a nail salon. shoot.
\\we watched...movies: election was the film of choice, soo good. matthew broderick rules.
this is going to be a weekly occurrence...on [really really angry face, for no reason at all] fridays!!!!
<3.
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i have the hottest desktop known to man.
just ask jessica...
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[19 Sep 2003|01:08pm] |
-pimps & hoes (SO FUNNY)
-power rangers
-pirates
-pop stars of the 80's & 90's
which do you think is best?
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[19 Sep 2003|12:59pm] |
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okay, so the theme for halloween is comic book heroes, right? i'm wonderwoman, andy is wolverine, AND WE NEED A FEMALE SUPERHERO FOR JESSICA. catwoman (our previous idea) will not work. HELP US. KTHNX. and also dan, joe, jake, jim, and enzo: YOU ARE TO BE INVOLVED IN THIS THEME AS WELL. SO THINK OF A COSTUME. the theme MIGHT need to be altered if we cannot think of one more chick superhero, though.
<3.
[edit]::she's not going to be storm either. the costumes are so ugly.
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happy 6 month anniversary lovebirds!!
( Read more... )
i am the reason those two are together, thank you very much.
come on guys, hook me up! i want a lovebird!
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| i'll kiss your thighs to make you feel alright |
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i had another really cute weekend.
friday, kris and i had an adventure. our loft was painted by jessica's wonderful parentals. i got home to the 586 at about 11:30, and sat up and talked with jim until about 2. man i missed him.
saturday, jake decided that me him and jim needed to go to denny's for breakfast. it was so cute. jim made me laugh so hard that i cried. "everytime i walk, i have an orgasm." band practiced. i saw alan, he's cute. and according to joe, scary? the rest of the guys rule. joe gave me about a cajillion hugs and dan was just funny. then, danny and i went to coney to see tony, and then to the mall, I HAD TO GET ANOTHER TICKET FOR THE SHOW BECAUSE I LEFT MINE AT SCHOOL and we just walked around and talked a lot. i <3 that boy. then back to his house it was, he "harassed" a fan of his, tony came over, we chilled, miss jessica came and then the four of us were off to the cursive/blood brothers show. I SAW MIKE while this crazy JAPANESE band was playing...they cracked me up to say the least. the show was amazing, both bands blew me away. the blood brothers have this amazing amount of energy, they are amazing musicians and their live show is off tha hizzo. cursive is one of the best bands i have ever seen live. i danced so much for them. we got semi-lost/turned around on the way out of d-town. some KOOKY cop tried getting us lost even more. but tony found made our way out of that scary, scary place. he's not racist or anything, just wants to live. then coney afterward was fun. ravenswood boys, bahri and adam were there. we laughed a lot, talked about stalkers, "moments", and whatnot. we had a really good night, those boys make me laugh and my best friend rules.
sunday i hung out with jim, drove around, and went back to school. studied my ass off for my math exam today, started feeling sick again.
moday, took my first math exam. yuck, school sucks. i am sick again. my throat and chest feel as if they are going to explode. but it's coo. after classes, TODAY WAS THE BIG DAY. kris and i got our industrial piercings. it definitely looks sweet, hurt, but looks sweet. i'm happy with it, and kris and i are STRONGER! my parents don't know so it'll be a surprise. alan gross might be down it, he might not. not sure. but yeah, now i'm going to go outside because it's nice and i want to read.
<3.
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[11 Sep 2003|11:20pm] |
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+ i'm going home tomorrow
+ i bought the alkaline trio dvd...oh man, amazing. i am in love with it.
+ cursive/blood brothers is this weekend, yay
- school sucked this week
- mike and i have come to the conclusion that being sick sucks, all i've been doing is sleeping
+ rich and i are friends again, which is a good thing. long story but i'm glad that we are.
+ tomorrow is friday, good news.
+ my brother is the coolest person in the world
+ my TE150 class was let out early tonight...best news ever
+ family guy is on tv, what a fucking good show
- all of katie's friends are coming up this weekend, and it would've been fun to meet them
- i'm really lonely as of late.
++ i'm going home tomorrow!!
tv time.
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